I am in the middle of a mixed episode. A really hard one. The mix is one of manic thoughts and severe depression, lethargy, and loss of energy. I feel like I am just this limp rag, I hurt, and I want to crawl into a ball under my covers and stay there. But my mind races. Eric is doing his best to keep up with my moods.

I got an emergency appt. with my doctor today and got put on Depakote. I took is a few hours ago, now I just feel numb and my mind still races. I’m sorry that I don’t write more when I’m experiencing these things, I feel I should to help myself better understand what triggers them. I think this time it started with Mt. Dew. I had waaay more caffiene than usual and got into a bad place, and stayed there. I don’t know how to get out of it now, hopefully the medication will help